We have found the key

The last two nights we have had a full nights sleep, hallelujah!! I don't even really know how it happened. Lots of 'stay in your bed' talks. 

The day naps still aren't going too well but the tantrum time is getting shorter. We took away Ted. Ted is Seb's stinky blanket that he's obsessed with. We told him if he stays in his bed he can have him back, he promised he would and he stopped the tears so we gave him his Ted and he went straight to sleep. He must really love that stinky rag. Who says you can't bribe your kids.

I was getting super worried about how Seb would be once the baby was born, considering he doesn't even like to share me with J but last night we visited my sister in law and niece and Seb was amazing! He just wanted to hold the baby and kiss her, he didn't even mind when I was giving her my attention. These last few days have made me hopeful. I know we'll have more hard times with sleeping and tantrums probably for the next...forever, it certainly makes me appreciate the easy times.

Lately

This week has been hard you guys. We're in the thick of the terrible two's and nothing could have prepared me for it. The days that J is at work are long, we've been spending most days just hanging around the house because the chances of Seb tantruming out is just too high and I cringe just thinking about it. The tantrums happen at home regardless but at least no one is around to see it. I know its all natural and it happens to the best of us but seriously!? Kid wont listen, Kid wont nap, he has ridiculous requests that I cannot fill and then he'll throw a fit when I try to explain. He'll ask for food and then will blatantly refuse to eat it. He will continue to climb on the bench after getting in trouble for doing it 1000 times before. I just don't get it, chances are neither does he.

I need to remind myself to not hold it against him and reassure the both of us that this is hard but it will pass. He can be the sweetest kid, he's so full of love and can be so damn amazing I just wish I saw it more these days.

When J comes home its another story, he'll be perfect for me and awful for him. I can see the jealousy building with his age. He hates it when we hug, when J and I were holding hands he kicked them apart, literally. If Seb is crying he wants me, all natural things right? It just adds to my exhaustion because I cannot wait for the help when J is home but I don't get it, and its not for lack of J trying, Seb just will not co-operate.

I just keep telling myself that without the hard times we wont know the good, and this is so true. I cherish every happy moment with Seb lately and I love the alone time I get with James I just need more of these times. I'm going to make time for both, that is my vow.

Give me all the foods.

I am the crappiest of all crap mummy bloggers. I thought when I got pregnant I'd have so much to write about, but really who wants to hear that I've sat in my pjs until 2pm everyday? Not very interesting stuff. 

We sailed through the storm of Seb's none sleeping issues, he went back to normal in the blink of an eye. The only thing going on with him now is he wants to sleep in with me. He goes in his own bed fine but wakes up through the night asking for a "cuddle-hug", how can I refuse? I don't really mind it for now, he's never going to be this age again and in a few months he's going to have to share me, that's going to be tough. 

I've started buying some little things for baby girl, has anyone else found it overwhelming when looking for girls clothes? There is so much out there. I can't do too much shopping yet, we're still looking for houses to move into in June so instead of carting more stuff around ill just start fresh then.

This weekend is Mother's Day woo! I plan on passing off most of my motherly duties to James because he's actually home this holiday muhaha. We actually have a great weekend planned. We've already had breakfast with J's fam now I'm laying in bed while the boys are off at the shop. Pure, quiet, bliss. 

After Seb's nap we have a baby shower/30th birthday then tomorrow we have a Mother's Day lunch planned with all the family. I'm going to stuff my face, I'm pregnant. 

Showers with a chance of thunder storms

For the last week, Seb had been awful. Plain stinking sucky. He'd been refusing to nap for a couple of weeks but there were never tantrums and if he was tired enough he would sleep.

Then it turned into flat out blatant rudeness. No matter how tired, he would FIGHT. I mean full fledged fits of rage about sleeping. It turned ugly on Thursday, this little boy of mine was unrecognizable, demanding, bratty and just horrid. I love him but I did not like him that day. He fell asleep for 5 minutes in the car because he was exhausted. Stayed asleep until I got him into bed then realized what had happened, bam! Cue thunder and strong winds, it was on like donkey kong. Long story short there was no nap. I thought okay early bedtime. The tantrums had never happened at bed time so I thought I was in the clear. It was worse then ever, a tornado.

It took an hour and a half to get him to sleep. I had to sit beside him and hold his hand for him to stay in bed, small price to pay.

Friday came, I was nervous come nap time but guess what? He slept for 3 hours! Didn't hear a peep out of him when he went down, seriously. Bed time was the same, the sun had come out!

Lets hope this week is more sunshine with just a chance of rain.

19 week. A survey

I'm going to try and do one of these every other week, we'll just see ha ha.


How far along are you? 19 weeks

How big is the baby?: around 14 cms and in fruit terms, about the size of a mango

Maternity cloths: Maternity stockings, they are incredible

Stretch marks?: Nope

Sleep: pretty normal, I'm still so much more tired but that probably has more to do with Seb these days.

Best moment this week: finding out we're having a girl!

Movement: she's kicking up a storm

Food cravings: Givz me all the foodz

Food aversions: Junk food

Labor signs: No way

What I miss: Not feeling tired, but I'm going pretty good these days.

What I am looking forward to: moving house to start setting up her nursery.

It's a...

GIRL!
We're having a baby girl come September. I'm still in shock, I feel beyond lucky to be given the gift of a little girl! I'm lucky to even just be pregnant when there are so many people in the world struggling to conceive. A mini me is just the icing on the cake. To have a boy AND a girl is the cherry on top.

When found out I was pregnant this time I swore I would never do it again, two was enough no matter the sex but in the back of my mind I thought if we had two boys I would try again, I didn't want too, only because of morning sickness, but I would to have another chance of getting a girl.

This might sound so ridiculous to some people and really selfish, but my whole life I've always imagined having a daughter. The heart wants what it wants.

As soon as those two pink lines appeared on the pregnancy test, I wished for a girl, a healthy baby of course but one with lady bits. I had the feeling it was a girl but I didn't know if it was just wishful thinking, turns out my feeling was right!

The morning of the ultrasound I was so nervous, I'm so glad we made the appointment for 8am, there is no way I would've been able to wait all day. One of the first things our Tech asked was if we were wanting to find out the gender, of course we did but we decided we wanted her to write it down on a card we bought in so we could open it in our own moment with our family. This honestly was the best decision and I so wish we did it the first time.

The 5 second drive home was looonngg. the envelope was burning in my hands. J's mum was at our house watching Seb and we decided to get her to open the envelope. My mum had to work so we had her on speaker phone for the announcement.

'and the winner is...' James' mum gasped, 'A GIRL! IT'S A GIRL!'

I literally started crying and made sure she wasn't tricking me, my mum started crying on the phone and saying she knew it. We were all just in shock, I feel so blessed. Only 21 more weeks (give or take) until we can meet this little angel but for now I'm content with feeling her kicks all day and night.

When you're waiting for something to happen, do you feel like you can't do anything until it does, like once the moment comes then you can keep living your life and move forward?

That's how I feel about tomorrow. Once I know the sex of this baby, then and only then can I go to the shops with intent to buy something, anything!

Then I can look at moving house and choosing a name and buying a new pram and sheets etc. I don't want to pick a boys name and a girls I just want to focus on the one sex. This pregnancy won't have been completely real up until i know the sex.

That's really strange. 19 hours to go!